SOC Writing _ Friday, 9th October 2020

Warm & Strong in my core

 The dream awoke with me feeling new – this new feeling of hope in me – of massive expansion and possibility – of being star struck by the interviewer – oh the light in my hearts eye – oh the being seen and reflected to be of value! Isn’t that what we all want? To be home in ourselves, valued – felt – not thought – a felt experience of worth – worthy as fuck. The rest of the universe can get stuffed – I’m home now baby and I’m resting in it. The dream had a muse attached to it – get up, don’t sleep this off – you want to change your life, remember? Want to feel differently, live into that change, by changing – walk, walk the cold walk under star and street lamp – the noise of engines on the expressway – get to the dark – to where the wild things are – there – there you will find – nothing – and everything. You are moving now – taking note of the important details you have been ignoring; overlooked because you were, literally asleep. In the early hours life is not normal – you can imagine yourself to a new you – a new world of possibilities – keep this up – the walking with the spirits as she said – and you will come upon a ground of being – tremendous, marvellous, momentous – its you - your ground – who you are becoming – because you are wanting and you are listening – a step closer to another version of you – this one is fine – but everything is changing – you cannot stay put – cannot rhyme with static or be a heart in stone – yours is to move and love and be worn out – in the most human way – like all things – giving fully of its’ own vitality while it arises - then – then. The gate closes for this season and I rest, bide my time under the snow – sleep, waiting for the spring to come – it always does. Do. Not. Fret. She said this. Jesus did too – such a gentle and reassuring statement. Do not worry – about anything. Oh the world has made this a currency I know – and yet it is perennially true that you can be the best you when you worry less and just do what the creature you does. XO.