Void Orbit
SOC Writing _ 9.8.21
Void Orbit
Sitting here – writing about the dream with all the girls and the knowledge that none of them care – but you weren’t there. The ocean is swelling – coming over the breaches to the house – this is how it ends – the sea engulfing what Noah left behind – we – cannot be trusted – do not understand so we must be eliminated - or at least not part of grandfather’s inheritance – the meek shall inherit the earth – those who know the touch of soil season in, season out – A wild, flamboyant love of nature – the way my son can see a bird at a 100 yards that is invisible to me. This cold rain quickens me – I must move fast – be aware of everything, not slip – and get the fire hot before the young ones wake. Then a cup of tea – to remember thee - maybe a 10 min meditation remembering what it is to sit with you in good and bad times. I have never stayed this long – do not know how relationships form and begin and end - Do not wish for a premature ejaculation, only that everything find its place and stay in the passage of time mined for it – the boat cradling the life that is growing upon it – we like young sapling on mothers branch will look different than the others – we have, are, standing on the shoulders of giants. Why do I feel this separation is different? Cleaner - stronger – still wanting but able to be alone and feel into the earth and hear what she is staying – after all – she knows far more than me – she has more of my best interests at heart. Do we really want to start this fire? – already begun – but burn together somehow – not solo. I have no idea what the future holds – childers - the ashes of the cinder block have hit my head hard and it hurts to think – because thinking has no place in this place – this gulf between you and I – the songs we sung each other – the wink of your eye I remember – and then it all goes silent and there is just us – the noise and our own silent fears, joys and slowly, slowly coming home to ourselves, our love and the wondrous piece we are still working out.