Courage

SOC Writing _ 3.10.21

Courage

The only way to go is the narrow way – therein lies life – but the broad way destruction. Even since I was a child I was told about these ways and how I should aim for the tricky places – chose the path where Christ would walk. Of course it is in my nature to follow that which I want, despite how challenging the choice - a piece of music when the other was easier – moving overseas to study when there were local options and now – follow a love when there is enormous pain as a process of letting go and finding what lies on the other side without hope. Hope being that when we get there - we always attach to whatever feels hopeful, solid, known, safe. In this path no safety holds – like climbing El Capitan – the granite wall with no safety holds - this is free - solo into thin air of the heart and my heart is strong – is warm, is loving, is made of the stuff it traverses – is a holographic resonator and that why I resonate with you my love. Always searching for that one who will resonate back to the core and here we find ourselves at a brink of what feels like disaster – yet master of our own hearts – yet none – moving toward the great love and in its fires remake and re –birth. I will recognise you on the other side because I have always recognised your soul – and though it pains me to drop us – what we moved through - I will eventually - hoping with no hope, faith with no faith – leaping with abandon into that chasm of life with you – not knowing not knowing but growing through this – becoming me, becoming you. I love you now too much for words – a growing fire in me – just tearing down all the walls of everything to reveal the pulsating core of connection at the centre of the universe.