If one day you found me hiding inside, not behind my heart - I would not be surprised. This pulsing, bloodied mass - organ of life has held me all my days - pulling me, pushing me towards its own longing.

I have always been a seeker - always sought the meaningful life - at times thwarted because I learnt young that to gain acceptance I must keep the adults in my life happy, must follow the rules and produce adequate results. I’ve done all this without much fault - but now hear Jesus request - give away all you have and come follow me. Its true that all that served me well till now ain’t gonna cut it for the next part of the journey.

Give it all away?

Yes, lay it down - its still for the young - for those whose path has not yet steepened. As for you - serving at a deeper level, out beyond the bays, you must find a way to leave all the old ways being and belonging behind - trust your heart to lead you to that promised vocation - that act and action of devotion that only comes with a new arising of what has always been in you - is, you. Is the worlds longing inside for what you left behind - slowly closed off. For in that re-arrival - the presence of the wild you have carefully tended for the longest time will, will burst into flames.