SOC Writing _ 22.6.21

Don’t come with something

Come with nothing – come with flesh and bone – drop fear – drop love – drop everything – be here now, be there now – in the ever arising moment there is peace – peace in this instant and then the next – the next thing is beyond your control – don’t you see it is all mutually arising moment by moment – you could curate – but it would backfire – you could control and that would be sabotage – but let be what WANTS to be here - beyond your anxiety - beyond the old, old, old pit in your stomach that says – stay away from here – from fear - from what? From letting go is what – this is a moment you have been training for – close in, closer still – not combat – but a kind of war – WAR raging inside you – I do not know who I am or what is mine to do – cannot do anything - AM not anything – feel a dry bone in the desert sort of feeling – when Lot saw his wife turn to a pillar of salt it was not that he was immoral – but that he had lost faith – faith in reality – in what the universe (God) is opening for you – how to fall apart when you are so conditioned to being in control – to let time stretch longer that it may come in exactly the way it want to – with you not even guiding – only hands off so that the world may twirl and delight – twirl and delight. Can’t you allow delight to happen? Can you marvel at the feat of this undoing of yourself? I know you think you know the way this goes – but if you want the new, you must go through that painful gauntlet called yourself – your own refining fire is hot – has enough to burn you clean and clear – clean and clear – that is what is waiting for you out there – so, gird yourself once again – be gentle – go slowly and see – and be fucking curious – wonder – and wonderment – this is a new day, this is a new chapter – a book for your life’s work that you just have to open.