I fly away

In the morning the sit was hard. Dog barking, kids crying, mothers talking bout nothing, nothing, nothing. But something - that glimmer of human connection even when it’s about something they bought. In my judgement I can climb to the top of the tallest building and bellow out to all below: you suck, I’m better than you, look how high I’ve ascended! Only to realise I’ve climbed the wrong building. My life is elsewhere - thats why I write about flying - the freedom of birds - the longing for wings. The way the character Bird spends her childhood seeking something external that was already inside her. But we must - seek our freedom - arrive upon those enormous rooms of wild within us that will not be shaped into the domestic - will not allow an estate of houses where it knows the forrest must be. A plea - a heavy sigh - to pay attention to the larger entity that I am - to not settle for what society says we must be or do or promote - values - that is - our values come from the wild places now - must have an intimate connection with tide, whales, moon, earth signs, smells, the ferment of wine in the animal skin - the requirement of time for all good things to arise - and now this request also for humility. Humility in the knowing of who you are - a body - a newcomer to earth - not necessarily wise - just big brained and yet to be initiated - yet to lose the bravado of the swaggering youth - so pay attention - stay close to the earth even as you fly. Pay closer attention to your heart - where is its wild place? Where does it want to go? Who are you really when you consider your death - your inevitable demise? What part of you is more than societal constructs - social and familial ties? It is your animate being - grounded in some element - water, wind, fire - earth - the logos is speaking and the planet is awakening - I awake too and find my head spinning - might as well come off - for where I am going has no mind for the heady stuff - it is below the waist - gut, sex, earth - hot molten core stuff surround by dense, wild forrest - you know the place - lets meet there.