Bold

SOC Writing _ 7.10.21

Bold

To boldly go where no Matt has gone before is the time of this time . I step into dirt tide - my feet caught in the detritus of swirling currents - on the way in the waves carry me - I need to be carried today - a sleepless night - a body in fright - I tell myself stories about not going on - calling it a day, walking away - from what? fears, love, her? You are more than you think you are - transformation doesn’t happen when everything stays the same - the ship has sailed and you are on it - have $10 in your pocket and the smell of adventure on your coat - the stream to the prohibited place is being trod by your feet. You do not know the way - you just walk - walk on - thinking nothing - wanting to talk to no one - trust no one - only the inner light that loves you just right - tug at the source of your brokenness and the whole damn cabinet falls on you - it’s contents full of old albums, toys, smells, clothes - all the shit that used to burden your heart - sentimental - not now - this time is about uncovering the secret rooms of my childhood where I cried the room down and door was closed on me - deliberately - I cannot believe I let my daughter cry herself to sleep alone - I know we were exhausted - trying to cope with ourselves - but mostly the society expected this - doing all manner of evil because they all do it too - I am so sorry - what I would give to sleep with you child - and comfort your young soul - from above - from light and life and love - your tiny soul alone - I will hold you now and ask who you are and where you are going and find my way to make your precious path easier - may you be happy, may you be free from suffering - may I be happy, may I be free from suffering. Hold life - the love that lasts and may I joy greatly - drink deeply from the cup of wherever this love is doing to me. x