Top down, bottom up

SOC Writing _ 18.10.21

Top down, bottom up

The right way to do anything is the way I will do anything - lead with heart - speak your mind, trust - start - just start - put yourself in the way of life - lean through the thicket to peer into the diversity of life under your fingers - finger tips - tipping over - the glass all over the table, the milk dripping to the floor- fuck! What the fuck!? I hear my mother - hear myself - the loss of what? Momentary situational perfectionism - control. There is nothing wrong with this moment - nor with the next - there is nothing wrong with life - how it arrives - wrapped in whatever packaging - taught and smooth - breaking open like Cable Guy’s kick-about-box - cable guy! It’s all coming whether you like it or not - so drop your preferences and realise you can learn what you do not know - just like you learnt to like olives - just like a child in the womb doesn't know what breath, pooping, walk, speaking air held sound is like - we - I am like this babe - on my journey through the birth canal to all that waits on the other side and I will work with my mother, will not die stillborn - will hear her panting - feel her trembling and agile as I am - move in the way of surrender and hope - for the light entering the end of the tunnel - all the way I can just allow what is coming - to pass - get out of mind and mind the signs - really attend to you love, your experience - where you are - and offer my presence as the gift I am - offering you all of me - and more of me as I so long from you - more and all of your trembling parts - your sore bits - the protectors have released you for now and now they come back as friends, allies and love you from your new place of power.