Queen of despair

Lock it up, lock it all in - these feeling are yours and you get to use them artfully. All of your experience is yours to create and make and celebrate. Use them! Often enough you will come across channels of current - like you did this morning - a welling up of emotion that you want to push down and now you know you must go into it - like being pulled by the tides across Kāpiti - there is futility in resistance - and exhaustion - Going with this river - staying in her centre - is the key - the trick is going with - not stopping against. And so this queen of hearts - queen of despair - whence did she rise? Was it of the love of your life? Or is it something far more subterranean? A loss of your final innocence - the letting go of the first half of your life so you can go further on and further in? Yes, you have now lost what can never be regained - are moving on from a host of securities to embrace uncertainty - here in lies your strength, your treasure - here is where your true power lies. There is now a time for weeping - and then a time of stillness - the rock crushed and all her pieces used to path the road that stretches out in front of you - your path - the one you can’t see out beyond this ever present step. Take the next step - the one you don’t want to take - it is coming to pass and you must, must pay attention with these new eyes. The scales are falling and she is with you. There is no safety but there is what you long for: Life! Joy! - a great temple feast is prepared for you and your love - the kind old ones have seen your love and bless it - they are over the moon with joy at how you are stepping one foot at a time in tandem. Do not worry - let go - be free - be in the joy that is yours. See - you will see - a new panel has opened in the hallway - and my, how far it extends!